rainy days and mondays always get me writing...

Looking out the window into a massive sky filled with grey clouds makes my heart soar. Hearing the irregular pattern of rain on the window creates dreams. Smelling the fresh scent of rain-washed streets makes me smile. I love fall!

For some reason my genetic make-up must have included a gene that forces me to desire writing at every possible moment the instant that true fall weather is upon me. I cannot help but be inspired by the previous things I've mentioned as well as so many more things of which the details would bore you.

Since Autumn has set upon LA finally (or at least we all hope so) I have 'caught the bug' for writing once again. I re-read my second novel a few weeks ago and finally finished the read-through last week. Its funny how you can write something and forget you'd written certain scenes until you read them again and laugh. Is it wrong to laugh at your own writing? ;) As I came to the last chapter I found myself completely caught up in the moment. There she was, the protagonist who has gone through so much, meeting the man of her dreams in a fair-tale setting of white lights, lightly falling snow, and a handsom man meeting her under a gazebo. Sounds slightly corny, yet when you've been involved with the story I'd like to think it fits and doesn't stand out as too much of an unrealistic happening. Anyway, the story ended as I had previously written it and my soul felt at peace.

It really is funny how personal writing can be, isn't it? Here I am, a mere 24 year old girl who has a passion for reading and writing hoping, praying, to have my meager 'talent' discovered not so that I become famous but for the sole purpose of my characters and their story becoming known. I don't write to find renown. I don't write to get money. I write for the sheer joy of creating a happy ending out of trials and dissapointments that anyone could have, to show that God is sovereign.

I'm simply reflecting here, but as I begin a rocky journey that I hope ends in publication someday, I want to remind myself that it is all in God's perfect timing. Isn't that hard to forget sometimes? But yet, it always ends so much better than I could plan it myself. Praise God!

memory lane to expectation

I've been taking a lovely jaunt down memory lane. I feel its appropriate due to the fact that soon all i've known will be drastically different. I say that rather dramatically, but i only mean it in the way that i'll be moving out of the house in a week and a half - finally out into the great, wide unknown beyond my tiny scope of home, family, and friends. It is a drastic change. One i don't take lightly.

My memory-walking is due to the fact that i've started a scrap-booking project to chronicle the individual years of my life up until the end of high school. It's quite the task, but i'm finding a lot of joy in it! There are so many memories i cant recall, captured only by film (and it was still film then...). They taunt me, just begging me to remember them and enjoy the sweet bliss of yesteryear. But alas, i cannot remember most of these times and it's disturbing! Life was so carefree and happy back then.

Looking back does cause me to look forward with anticipation though. So many memories now fill pages in my scrap-book but there are so many pages that are yet to be filled and decorated, showcasing my next years. I am filled with anticipation at the great things God will do through and with me, and i eagerly await the unfolding of His plan for my life.

May we look back in order to look forward with anticipation!

my first blog

I've decided to dedicate more of my time to writing, seeing as I've finally finished my BA in Music and Youth Ministry. Its a wonderfully freeing thing to be able to dedicate time to something. Time being such a precious commodity of course. As I have never 'blogged' before (aside from Xanga) I find it to be a wonderful challenge to attempt to create something minimally interesting for the viewing of others. I may fail miserably at this, but at least I'll attempt it.

For now though, I am of to work on a manuscript that is nearly done...two chapters left!