Thursday, December 12, 2013

Spread the Christmas Joy with Beth Goddard and Giveaway | Day 12

Joy from Beth Goddard

"On Whom His Favor Rests"

“Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.” Luke 2:14

When Emilie invited me to share a special Christmas memory I struggled to come up with something that stood out because, really, all the Christmases with my family are special. Though by no means wealthy, my parents used what little money they had to make our Christmases an extraordinary event when I was growing up. Yes, we did the whole Santa Claus thing, but we understood the true meaning of Christmas, celebrating the birth of Christ was and still is a priority for us.

That was then, and we still share Christmas together today in the same way, even though I turned fifty this year.

I still go to my Mom and Dad’s for Christmas, just like I have every year since I can remember. Through childhood, college, my YUPPY (young urban professional) years, marriage and children, and even when we lived in Oregon—2200 miles from my Texas home. That was probably the most difficult time. With six people in our family and my husband serving as pastor of a small church, flying to Texas wasn’t an option. So we had to drive to see my parents and it took three very long days, especially since my family lives in East Texas—which meant another day of driving over the great state of Texas.

But being with family is special. It’s important enough to squeeze in a three day drive each way even when it meant only seeing family for a few days. For five years of my life I only saw my parents once a year—for those few precious days over the Christmas holidays. We had to squeeze in all the love and hugs and conversations during that short time, making the most of it. Making it all it could possibly be. And yes, we celebrated big then. No matter how difficult, we made it happen.

Just as in a few days we’ll celebrate big, enjoy the holidays and God’s gift of his son to us. God’s gift of family and friends. This time, I only live three hours away, not three days.

And I know I’m one on whom His favor rests.
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Elizabeth Goddard is an award-winning author of eighteen romance and romantic suspense novels, including the romantic mystery, The Camera Never Lies—winner of the prestigious Carol Award in 2011. After acquiring her computer science degree, she worked at a software firm before eventually retiring to raise her four children and become a professional writer. A member of several writing organizations, she judges numerous contests and mentors new writers. In addition to writing, she home schools her children and serves with her husband in ministry.

Connect with her: http://elizabethgoddard.com
Purchase her book Wilderness Peril HERE


Today's giveaway us another one of those fun vintage-Christmas items, this time a notepad, with a fun little frame.


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Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Spread the Christmas Joy with Mary Hamilton | Day 11

Joy from Mary Hamilton

--> Most Christmas gifts are soon forgotten, but two special ones stand out in my memory.

When I was four or five, I was quite a tomboy. Like many young girls, I loved horses and dreamed of owning one someday. To prepare for that event, I “practiced” riding on the back of the couch. This, of course, put a burr under my parents’ saddle, so I took my riding down to the basement where we’d go to watch television. The old green armchair we’d curl up in to watch TV was the most comfortable and least attractive chair in the house. The chair’s back was higher than all our other chairs, making it perfect for imitating my hero, Roy Rogers. Like him, I’d take a running leap onto my “horse” before racing off in pursuit of imaginary bad guys.

On Christmas Eve, after all the presents had been opened, my dad claimed he heard noises out on the porch. The rest of us couldn’t hear anything, but Dad insisted someone was out there and went to check. He returned with a spring-mounted hobbyhorse, claiming Santa had left it. The horse was in full gallop and I fell in love. My chair-riding days were over.

Years later as a young adult shopping with my fiancé, I again fell in love with a picture on the wall of a furniture store. In old style dress, a little girl with long blonde tresses pouts as she stands in a corner. Behind her, a large collie approaches while looking back, as if wanting to comfort her but fearing he may end up in the doghouse as well. I knew we couldn’t afford the picture but oh, how I loved it. I even returned to the store to see if they might sell me the unframed print, but it was gone. No one even remembered having such an item. Five years later at Christmas, my husband presented me with that very same print and it still hangs on our wall today.

What made those gifts so memorable? Besides being a complete surprise (I love surprises!), they were personal. Each one touched a deep part of my heart, satisfied a longing.

This time of year symbolizes God’s plan to meet our deepest longings with the gift of His own son. An innocent baby touches our hearts, a personal gift to each one of us. But we must choose to accept or reject the gift. When we accept, God reaches into the deepest parts of our heart and satisfies our most intense longings. Not longings for horses or pictures that fade, desires that change with time. No, He satisfies our longings for unconditional love. He declares us righteous, though the world condemns us. He alone supplies our need for salvation and eternal life.
Truly, every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights (James 1:17).
This Christmas, celebrate with me the most memorable gift ever given, ever received, ever accepted. The gift of Messiah, God’s only son, Jesus Christ our Savior.
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Mary L. Hamilton is an award-winning author who started out writing articles for magazines and a Christmas play, Homespun Angel. Her faith is a strong influence in her life and writing.

Mary grew up at a camp much like the setting for her Rustic Knoll Bible Camp series. When she’s not writing, she loves the outdoors and nature as well as opening her home to youth Bible studies, pancake suppers and breakfast with her special recipe waffles. She and her husband live near Houston, TX, within range of her three grown children. Her debut novel, Hear No Evil, can be ordered here: http://tinyurl.com/kl5bovo

Connect with Mary:
Website/blog: http://www.maryhamiltonbooks.com
Facebook: http://facebook.com/maryhamiltonbooks
Twitter: @mhamilton122
Pinterest (for a peek at her characters): http://www.pinterest.com/mhamiltonbooks

Amanda Cabot {Writer Wednesday}

Please give a warm welcome to Amanda Cabot! I'm very excited to have her interview in among the fun of "Spread the Christmas Joy". There will be another Joy post later today so make sure you watch out for it :)

A little bit about Amanda...

From the time that she was seven, Amanda Cabot dreamed of becoming a published author, but it was only when she set herself the goal of selling a book by her thirtieth birthday that the dream came true. A former director of Information Technology, Amanda has written everything from technical books and articles for IT professionals to mysteries for teenagers and romances for all ages. She’s delighted to now be a fulltime writer of Christian historical romances. Her Texas Dreams trilogy received critical acclaim, Christmas Roses was a CBA bestseller; and a number of her books have been finalists for national awards, including ACFW’s Carol award.

How to connect with Amanda...

Website: www.amandacabot.com
Blog: http://amandajoycabot.blogspot.com
Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/1609844.Amanda_Cabot
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Amanda-Cabot/110238182354449?v=wall

Author Interview | Amanda Cabot

You and Writing

Tell us a little bit about yourself: How did you start writing? What has kept you writing?
...I really cannot remember a time when I didn’t write – or at least want to write, and so I wrote sporadically until I was almost 29. Since then I have come to believe that authors have at least one thing in common with oysters, namely that we need irritation to produce our pearls … er… our books. For me, that irritation was moving to a new area and discovering that what had appeared to be an ideal job was truly awful. Of course, that happened at a time when jobs were hard to find, so I stuck with the one I had for over three years. But the irritation was enough that I decided it was time to become serious about writing.

...I’ve been writing since I was seven or eight, but it took that irritation to remind me that I had always had a goal of selling a book before I was thirty. I started what was to become my first published book just before my twenty-ninth birthday and sold it one week before my thirtieth. If this were a fairytale, I’d tell you that I became vastly wealthy and was able to quit my day job. The reality is, for many years (no, I won’t tell you how many) I wrote on nights and weekends, while I worked full time for Corporate America. Now I’m fortunate enough to be a full-time writer.

...I’m smiling at the “what has kept you writing?” question. The truth is, several years of rejections after my first sale made me question whether or not I ought to be writing, and I tried to quit. But each time I did, I realized that something important was missing in my life. That something was writing. A keynote speaker at a writers conference I attended soon after moving to Wyoming challenged us to answer the question: Is writing what you do or who you are? That was a light bulb moment for me as I realized that writing is who I am. It’s what God wants me to do, so no matter how hard it is – and there are days when it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done – I won’t stop. 


Your Writing

Tell us a little bit about your book or what you’re working on currently? Why did you write it?
.... With Autumn's Return is the third of the Wyoming Winds trilogy, the story of Elizabeth Harding, who comes to Cheyenne in the late 1880s, clutching her medical degree and convinced that she’ll be accepted by the territory’s residents. After all, Wyoming was the first to grant women the vote, and they were progressive enough to have a female judge and jurors. Surely a lady doctor would have no trouble. As you can imagine, reality turns out to be far different from Elizabeth’s expectations.

...One of the reasons I made Elizabeth a doctor is that I’ve always been fascinated by women who challenge the status quo and try to succeed in male-dominated professions. Then, too, medicine has changed dramatically since the 1880s, so it was fun to give readers a peek into the world of nineteenth century medicine. I for one am glad I didn’t live then. 


Writing

Where do you find inspiration for your story/characters?

...One thing I’ve learned is that inspiration can come anywhere and at any time. A snippet of music, a phrase in a book, even the sight of a sunset can start my brain asking “what if?” Sometimes those “what ifs” lead to dead ends, but sometimes they plant seeds that turn into full-fledged stories. In the case of With Autumn's Return, I was intrigued by Wyoming’s nickname, The Equality State, and wanted to tell the story of a time when equality wasn’t as prevalent as it is now.

When you write, what is your overall intention with your stories?
...My primary goal is to touch readers’ hearts and deepen their faith. Although I tell stories set in by-gone times, it is my hope that the characters’ struggles and the healing they find will resonate with readers and will remind them that God is with us no matter where (or when) we live.

What advice would you give to aspiring authors for writing and/or publishing?
...I have three pieces of advice. The first is to read extensively in the genre you want to write. That’s the best way to learn what a publisher is buying. Secondly, join a writer’s group. ACFW is wonderful for writers in the Christian marketplace, and Romance Writers of America is excellent for anyone interested in writing romance. A writer’s group provides support, networking and so many other resources to the aspiring writer that I can’t over emphasize the importance of joining one. And lastly, never give up. Rejection is a fact of life. I won’t sugarcoat it: rejection hurts. But if you let it defeat you, if you stop sending out your manuscript just because it was rejected, you’ll never be published. Believe in your book and in yourself. Oh … that was four pieces of advice. Sorry!

You

What is your favorite snack to eat when writing?
...Yogurt. I like the flavor, the calcium and the probiotics. Those are the good things. The bad? I’d rather not talk about what happens when you spill it on a keyboard.

What is your favorite Christmas song?
...Oh, that’s a tough one. It’s a tie between “O Holy Night” and “Adeste Fideles.” Both make my heart sing with joy.

What is your favorite thing about the Christmas season?
...The way the spirit of the season and the reason for the season seem to bring out the best in people. I see more smiles in December than in the other months combined.

Emilie, thanks so much for inviting me to be part of your blog. I’ve enjoyed our time together. And to each of you reading this, I hope the season has brought a smile to your face and joy to your heart.

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Thank YOU Amanda! What a treat to hear your heart on writing as well as a glimpse into your favorite Christmas things. I love how you are so encouraging to anyone pursing writing - the idea of never giving up is so true - I'm sure we all face it at one time or another but if it's some we "are" versus just something we "do" then it's worth it! Can't wait for your next book to come out! Thanks again :)

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Spread the Christmas Joy with Andrew Swearingen and Giveaway | Day 10

 Joy from Andrew Swearingen
"White December Days"

I’ve experienced far too few white Christmases. Central Illinois in late December, with its empty fields, harsh winds, and leafless trees, can feel quite dreary. But add some snow, even a little bit of it, and it changes everything. There’s something magical about watching the gentle flakes fall to the ground. I watch, hypnotized by their dance and it’s no wonder that some of my fondest holiday memories are intimately connected with snow.

One Christmas, we were hit with a snow storm while driving to my sister Megan’s house in Champaign-Urbana. The storm added an extra two hours and a sense of pioneering adventure to our trip as dad carefully traversed the icy highway at a blazing 35 mph. We arrived safe and sound at Megan’s house late that night. The next morning, the streets had been turned into an artic wonderland reminiscent of a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip.

Another year we were blessed with snowfall when we visited my Uncle Jim and Aunt Kay. I hadn’t spent much time with my cousins from that side of the family, most of whom were girls, but the snow proved to be a great “ice-breaker” as it were. It didn’t take long before my older brothers and I were engaged in a full out snowball war with our cousins. This proved unwise as most of the girls were on their varsity softball team and knew how to curve a snowball. To the best of my recollection the Swearingen boys fought valiantly and left the fight at a stalemate, although the girls would likely say otherwise.
 
The snow missed us for another several years. In summer of 2008, a week before my sister’s wedding, my dad was diagnosed with cancer in his liver. That next Christmas he had gotten some kind of virus which, in combination with his chemotherapy, kept him either in bed or in front of the toilet most of that week. Meanwhile, my family and my brother’s in-laws played penny poker together around the dining room table. My niece Tess, who wasn’t quite four years old, was having trouble sleeping, complaining of an ache in her belly. She ended up snuggled up on her grandma’s lap, watching the game and snitching chips from the table. A month later the belly ache was diagnosed as nueroblastoma, a rare bone marrow cancer.

Dad didn’t make it to the next Christmas. When it was clear he wasn’t doing well, we assembled the family back home, including Megan and her husband, Jared, who used a friends frequent flyer miles to make the trip from Texas. We all tried to say what we needed to say and provided much needed support for everyone. We would assemble again shortly after for dad’s funeral.

Our first Christmas without dad was difficult, not only because of his absence, but also by the fact that Tess was still fighting her own battle with cancer. Megan and Jared weren’t able to make it up from Texas, but on Christmas morning mom called Meg to wish her a Merry Christmas. That call lasted almost two hours as we passed the phone around, draining mom’s battery, each of us taking time to talk with Megan. One of my presents that year was a family portrait with our entire family on Dad’s 60th birthday, a picture which earned the title “The Miracle Shot” because not a second after the picture was taken the grandkids, impatient with having to sit still for so long scattered across the room, continuing whatever games had been interrupted.

The following year we all got back together back at the farm, meeting a week before Christmas as that was when Megan and Jared would be back in Illinois. Tess was doing considerably better, but was still required to take a regiment of pills (which thrilled her to no end). I don’t recall much about Christmas that year. It’s all a blur of heavy dinners, wrapping paper, and getting tackled by nieces and nephews.

What I do remember is Christmas Eve morning. Everyone had gone back home except for Megan and Jared, Mom, and me. I didn’t want to leave, but I was determined to get back home for the Christmas Ever service at my church. I was packing my bags and putting off goodbye when through the window I saw giant snowflakes start to fall. I knew that the longer that I waited the worse the roads would become. So Megan and I hugged goodbye and we both cried a little as the snow fall whited out the landscape, giving us another cherished white Christmas.

Two years later everyone returned to the farm. There had been a winter storm warning on the day that we were all traveling, but we saw nothing more than a gentle dusting of snow. It wasn’t until we pulled in the front drive of the farm that we encountered massive snow drifts, some six feet high or more. The entire farm was transformed into the artic playground of our dreams.

One particularly large drift became the focal point of the winter fun as my brother and I carved out tunnels in the drift with scoop shovels as the rest of our clan threw snow balls and attempted to build snow men. Tess, now several years into remission, claimed one of the tunnels as her ‘cave’ where she stored an arsenal of snowballs, more than a few of which made it my way. She spent a large part of that week outside with the other kids running, chasing, and exploring in the snow, a feat which would impossible during her treatments.

Megan and Jared won’t be able to make it home for Christmas this year. Just before Thanksgiving, Megan gave birth to their first child, Jacob, and they will likely have a relatively low-key holiday with just the three of them. Mom and I talked recently, lining out travel plans for the holidays. It’s all still a bit up in the air, but I’m certain that it’ll be wonderful regardless of where and when we get together. And while it’s impossible to plan these things, I am hoping that part of this Christmas will involve some new fallen snow.
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Andrew Swearingen is an aspiring writer and a graduate of Southern Illinois University. He currently lives in Carbondale, Illinois. For a "real job" he works in landscaping and occasionally works as a substitute teacher. He attends Vine Church in Carbondale where he serves in the kid's program as well as various other service areas.

Connect with Andrew on his blog: http://speculatethis.blogspot.com/
Excited for today's giveaway - I got this CD last year and liked it so much I wanted to offer a copy to a lucky giveaway winner! It features some great songs by popular Christian artists. You'll love it - trust me!



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Monday, December 9, 2013

Spread the Chrsitmas Joy with Deanna Klingel | Day 9

Joy from Deanna Klingel

Our two toddler daughters, excited that we would have a new baby in the spring, were enthralled with Baby Jesus. In fact, they wanted to name their baby Jesus. This was a special Christmas for us, still getting used to being a family, in our first home, and beginning new Christmas traditions with our first borns. The enthusiasm overwhelmed me when two days before Christmas in the dark afternoon big beautiful snowflakes began to fall. I phoned several friends who showed up at 6 pm, with their children and flashlights, dressed to be outside in boots and mittens, for the first annual Klingel Caroling Party. A simple party with hot chocolate and Christmas cookies, it was “entertaining” we could afford and included children.

The snow continued to fall; we trekked down the neighborhood street laughing, singing and pulling the kids on sleds. They took turns hopping off and ringing doorbells. We sang a slightly off-key carol and ended with “We Wish You a Merry Christmas” at every house. Our neighbors stood shivering and smiling in their open doorways. We could smell their suppers cooling in the kitchen, their tree lights twinkling.

We had the same party every year in different homes in four different states until 1999. Our family grew to seven children, foster children, international exchange students and displaced people in need of our homes. And we sang and laughed in all kinds of weather. Family and friends looked forward to it as a major event every Christmas. The memory of our first family caroling party in 1967, in Columbus, Ohio, is one I will always cherish.

Our mouths were filled with laughter our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among nations the Lord has done great things for them. Psalm 126:2
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Deanna Klingel lives in the mountains of western North Carolina with her husband Dave. They are empty nesters now except for golden retriever, Buddy. Their seven children are now parents of their eleven grandchildren and hosting their own caroling parties. Deanna writes for children and young adults.

Website: www.booksbydeanna.com
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Twitter @deannakklingel
Email: deannaklingel@yahoo.com

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Spread the Christmas Joy with Rebecca DeMarino and Giveaway | Day 8

Joy from Rebecca DeMarino

Many times we were in the process of a move and sometimes celebrated Christmas a few days early, only to watch presents being packed up by the moving company the next day. We didn’t care—we knew that it would be like a second Christmas morning when we unpacked everything on the other end!


Out of all of those moves and Christmases, the one that stands out the most to me is my thirteenth Christmas. We arrived on Guam in May, shortly after Typhoon Olive hit the island and there had been quite a bit of damage. But I still remember loving the fragrance of the tropical air, and the anticipation of an adventure.

A lazy summer spent by the Naval Air Station base pool, reading my favorite novels and then diving in to swim laps, was followed by my introduction to all-girls Catholic school and uniforms almost down to our ankles. And soon it was Christmas.

Christmas for my family that year was a little different, even for us. Oh, we still went to Christmas Eve midnight service at St. John’s Episcopal Church. And the presents were wrapped and under the tree, not to be touched until the next morning after Mom had brushed her teeth and donned her robe while Dad snuck out to plug in the lights.

But every time we looked at our tree, we rolled our eyes. We always had a fresh-cut fir tree—tall and bushy with the evergreen scent that tickles your nose. But standing, not too tall, in our lanai that year was a funny silver tree, sadly decorated with a few shiny red balls. After midnight service we said our goodnights as the wind began to pick up.

By two a.m. we were under a typhoon warning, and sleep was not an option. We watched the rain soak the red tissue wrapped gifts, while the wind whipped the little silver tree to and fro. We broke tradition that night and carried the gifts into the dining room. My older sis received a reel-to-reel tape recorder and until dawn we spoke into the mic, recording our take on coconuts flying by instead of Santa Claus. Was this Christmas?

I had given my heart to Christ that year, claiming Him as my Savior. And the Christmas we experienced that night taught me something I’ve held close ever since. It’s the Christ in Christmas that is important. The pretty ornaments, the sweet smell of pine trees and ginger cookies, brightly wrapped packages, all bring joy to the season, but only to remind of us of the Christ child who was born for us. And my joy is this: Christmas is in my heart, where Christ is. No matter where I might be, no matter my circumstance.


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Rebecca DeMarino’s passion for tracing her family roots began in 1999, while on a trip with her mother to Horton’s Point, Long Island. Her debut novel, A Place in His Heart, is a historical romance based on Mary and Barnabas Horton, Rebecca’s ninth great-grandparents. Set in 1600’s Southold, Long Island, book one of The Southold Chronicles will be released by Revell in June, 2014. She lives in the Pacific Northwest and when not writing, she enjoys jogging, baking, genealogy and gardening. Rebecca is represented by Greg Johnson of WordServe Literary Agency. She would love to have you visit her at www.rebeccademarino.com or find her at https://www.facebook.com/authorrebeccademarino and @rebeccademarino.


Attention all bakers! This fun, vintage Christmas tree baking set is perfect for the holidays :)

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Saturday, December 7, 2013

Spread the Christmas Joy with Carole Brown | Day 7

Joy from Carole Brown

It was beyond thinking about for this woman who loves every bit of Christmas and the true meaning of Christmas, for this wife of a minister who gives so much to the church, and especially for this mother who shrank from having no money to buy Christmas gifts for her two young sons.

My husband, pastoring a small church, supplemented his income with carpentry work, which he loved doing. His excellent, particular work made him a favorite with friends and relatives and probably the good prices helped too.

Yet this year, work was skimpy and there just wasn’t enough money to buy Christmas for our boys let alone all the relatives to whom we were expected to give. Our hearts lifted heavenward to a Father who we knew had heard our prayers many times and who understood well enough a parent’s love for his/her children.

The month slid by. No money. As much as I loved Christmas, this year I felt doubt slide into the picture, tempting me to worry, complain, and fret with the situation. “O ye, of little faith!” were Jesus’ strong words to his beloved disciples, and well they could have been aimed at me.

How many times had God come to our rescue? How many times had he come through for our needs, and even our many wants? Yet, as the Israelites of Biblical times did, I doubted.

Of course, I missed shopping on “black Friday.” Yes, I missed weeks of fun and anticipation of buying and wrapping and seeing our sons delighted faces at the packages beneath the tree. But I also missed the peace that comes with perfect trust, the joy of knowing whatever God planned it was his perfect will for us, for me. In spite of that, two weeks before Christmas, a wonderful job was offered.

This year outside work has once again been skimpy. The economy, personal business reasons which hopefully will soon see results, and other factors make this another difficult year in certain ways. Yet somehow the fretting and worrying are not there. Sometimes temptation is lurking --close and real, if I want to take that route. Yet the peace that we are in God’s hands, that all things work together for our good, and that there are options, all make for a peaceful time.

It could be I’m older, perhaps it’s because I’ve learned a thing or two, or because some things don’t matter as much as it used to. But I like to think it’s because God has worked with me, loved me and taught me the real meaning of Christmas. Family and friends, simplicity and love. Those are the things that matter most.
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Besides being a member and active participant of many writing groups, Carole Brown enjoys mentoring beginning writers. She loves to weave suspense and tough topics into her books, along with a touch of romance and whimsy, and is always on the lookout for outstanding titles and catchy ideas. She and her husband reside in SE Ohio but have ministered and counseled nationally and internationally. Together, they enjoy their grandsons, traveling, gardening, good food, the simple life, and did she mention their grandsons?

Connect with her here:
Personal blog: http://sunnebnkwrtr.blogspot.com/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CaroleBrown.author
Twitter: https://twitter.com/browncarole212
Pinterest: http://pinterest.com/sunnywrtr/boards/
Goodreads: http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/5237997-carole-brown
She is also part of several other blogs:
Stitches in Time: http://stitchesthrutime.blogspot.com/
Barn Door Book Loft: http://www.barndoorbookloft.net/